I have a tendency to try to milk every moment that Brad and I get to spend together, because our time together is rare. I get up at 5:30 am, go to work, aren't home until 3:50 at the earliest... He works 5pm-2am most days, including weekends. So our time together during the week is rare and on weekends we tend to sleep through most of it. I try to spend every moment I can with him, almost as if I have a limited amount of time. I usually do this with people because they have a tendancy to leave me... It's just what happens. Not sure why.
I've also been trying really hard to go to a friends wedding that is the day of mine and Brads year and a half. Not exactly a big deal, but I had him book off the day before so that we can at least do dinner or something. As it turns out, it looks like my only option to get to her wedding is go Friday with my boss and stay the night. This means missing out on precious boyfriend time that I requested we have... And I'm torn. And he's sitting here all amazing like "go to the wedding! I won't be upset, I understand, blah blah blah" and then he says something that almost makes my heart stop. And keep in mind, Brad doesn't talk feelings. He doesn't do emotion.... He never says he loves me first because he feels saying it too much ruins it. He and I know he loves me so I don't need to hear gooey shit from him all the time. So when he says this, I almost died. He says "you'll only get to go to her wedding once, and you've got the rest of our lives to hang out with me."
How did I get this lucky?
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